Raven & Armadillo
Armadillo: I’m sorry. I didn’t know how to process it all.
Raven: I know that.
Armadillo: I didn’t understand
Armadillo: I feel disappointed
Raven: You called me, remember?
Armadillo: I just didn’t know what to make of it all
Raven: You asked why you run. I told you why.
Raven: You’re not perfect. Do you know that nobody is perfect?
Armadillo: no I didn’t
Armadillo: er.. yes I guess I did
Armadillo: I have always tried to do the right things
Armadillo: or what I felt was right
Armadillo: at least in others eyes
Raven: At birth the children of Earth aren’t powerful enough to walk the path they have chosen. They develop coping skills that help for a time that do not necessarily serve their greatest purpose.
Armadillo: now thinking back
Armadillo: only when I’m traveling
Armadillo: seems only then I can be the “real” me
Raven: Your adult life is when you need to wrestle with what was agreed upon.
Armadillo: yes, I sort of get that.
Raven: Each time you run you solidify your dependence on those childhood beliefs. It holds you back from becoming who you have agreed to be. Goddess is speaking to you but you aren’t listening to her.
Armadillo: honestly I think I’d like to move on instead
Armadillo: I can’t be in this body anymore
Raven: Yeah she told me you are always trying to exit, that you’ve spent a lot of your time trying not to be here. You came here for a reason.
Raven: If you leave without taking it up the challenge, you will need to try to do it again later. It will continue until you have met it.
Armadillo: I don’t think I can be this body anymore.
Raven: Then transform it.
Armadillo: it is all the same as it turns out
Armadillo: what will make the difference?
Armadillo: how will I do it?
Armadillo: it’s so huge
Armadillo: and in some ways
Armadillo: I am scared if I don’t try then my life has been for nothing.
Raven: Have you really been listening to her? She let’s us know in her own way and helps with every step.
Armadillo: it’s confusing
Armadillo: I WAS listening
Armadillo: I didn’t get it
Raven: Filter her words through your heart, through your trust in her.
Armadillo: you know
Raven: If you stay with it I can help you to understand. You can’t run forever. You need to travel to yourself not to someone else or some other place.
Armadillo: after I left
Armadillo: I kept thinking
Armadillo: was she really talking to me? It seemed like she was talking to someone else
Raven: You asked questions and she answered.
Armadillo: you know
Armadillo: I live with this each and every day
Armadillo: I’m alone here
Raven: And not listening apparently.
Armadillo: I’m sorry
Raven: The two of you are one spirit.
Armadillo: I’m so lost when she leaves
Raven: When she left? Did she?
Armadillo: when she is near by I feel better
Raven: If you shut down you shut her out.
Armadillo: she doesn’t make it easy of course
Armadillo: she always makes me feel like I’m home
Armadillo: in the one from my dreams
Armadillo: I grew tired
Armadillo: her last words were
Armadillo: she could barely speak
Armadillo: she leaned in very close
Armadillo: and she told me that she loved me
Armadillo: after that she was gone
Armadillo: I would see her in my room
Armadillo: or at least her face
Armadillo: smiling at me
Armadillo: I want a love in my life.
Armadillo: I want someone that will put me first
Armadillo: sounds selfish
Armadillo: I know
Armadillo: I ask myself
Armadillo: when is it my turn?
Raven: You are given a lot of love from many.
Armadillo: I don’t feel it
Raven: You don’t recognize it.
Armadillo: I’m sorry I disappoint you.
Raven: You don’t disappoint me. You are hell bent on disappointing yourself.
Armadillo: are you mad?
Raven: I’m frustrated that you keep running away, but I’m always here. I can always be found.
Armadillo: when will you be finished with being mad?
Armadillo: I don’t understand any of it
Armadillo: and I am trying
Raven: I’m not mad. I understand that you weren’t ready.
Armadillo: will she come again?
Raven: I think she is simply waiting for you to invite her.
Raven: If you poof on me now I will be pissed off at you.
Armadillo: not moving
Armadillo: ass glued to seat
Raven: okay that did it,,, not angry anymore.
Raven: Humor is amazing.